Inside story:
She had never known any more perfection
cause there’s no other perfection beyond one she gazed into whenever she looked
into her eyes... but now they are closed. Closed forever!
She
tried to look past them, the eyes I mean; see beyond the beauty of the flash
and through her soul or something but that was all in vain. The first day she
ever wished the ghost/spirit make believe actually held true was the day she
couldn’t see through her eyes no more... the beauty was gone.- the love, life,
hope...her miracle was gone! It felt as though life was playing a trick of some
sort on her. For a second she got hold of it, she had it; the next.... she
started thinking, thought after thought, dream after dream, wish after wish;
for if she could have just one more day with her, just one more min, second
even; she could make it count as though a million of them, as though she never
had even one before....as though she would never have anymore, ever again:~
Despair!!!
Treasures:
One
minute you have it, the next its gone
No
matter how precious
Young
and innocent, does it even care?
You
alone care!
I
had it once, a treasure of mine, mine alone
I can’t
recall anything as amazing as it under the moon and the sun,
Regardless;
bophelo bo ka u bapale fupe ka lefe;
jwalo ka nna...
And
all you can cling to are memories.
Treasure
them, love them, embrace them;- the memories;
They
are the only connection you have left, your only sanity
The
only way you can still dream...
The
only way to carry on with the hurt;
Live
with the pain, through the pain...
You
just do it!
After
all is lost, the best I could do was hold on to the promises I had made
The
promise to move one...to live on...
But
somehow, day after day, I went back on that promise, today, again...
“For
that I am very sorry sweetheart!”- I said
“it’s
just when I love, I love deep, no half full glasses, as a consequence, I can’t
let go.
It
all happened too soon, we hadn’t finished our chats, our games; you know?...”-
I continued
Now how do you think it ends?? Does the pain ever
go away? Is forgiveness of self ever possible?
The biggest question in my attempt of a poem is;
“why did I NOT take all my chances and do things differently?”
However; the focus should at this point/ eventually
be on taking every chance presented NOW and never miss any opportunity to
change someone’s life...
CHANCE!!
We take it for granted whenever
presented unto us- heck! As a matter of fact often than seldom we do not take
it at all. The kicker to it all though is how big a gift to any human being
given a chance is. It comes but once in a life time and few even recognize it
as it knocks until it’s all gone and just as time, once lost it can’t be re-invented;
only regret can then live on!!
TIME!!
This narration I have heard it
somewhere.... in a year, there are 31 million & 530 seconds, a 1000
milliseconds in 1 second, a million microseconds and a billion nanoseconds and
the only constant connecting nanoseconds to years is CHANGE! Change is the only
connection between time and events within our lives, the chances we are given
and decision we make thereof...
CHANGE:
Human
beings hate change, they are scared of it and so they have invented the illusion
of “humanity”; “it’s not I am scared of change, I am only just human!”
Now: lets take a chance on change
for its here to make us better NOT to scare us enough to fight and resist it
and in so doing, we will be saving each nanosecond in our time... it’s a CHOICE
to do so.
Remember this saying: “choice
determines direction. Decision determines destiny.” By Doug Firebaugh
PERSONAL PHILOSOPHIES!
They are detrimental to our well-being. They are the deeply held beliefs and values
that address the most fundamental questions of our lives, how we perceive
things and the way we relate to them... like the meaning and purpose of life,
joy, death and pain and suffering, why things happen as they do, the very
nature of our relationship to others and to the world itself as well as the
nature of our goals and responsibilities as human beings [now breath! Lol]
Philosophies define our
expectations of ourselves as well as others. They guide the way we perceive and
respond to our own world and help us find our place in it. They do define the
framework by which we segregate thins in our lives with meaning, joy or pain
and by which we determine what seems right versus what seems wrong!
Next.....
What are your philosophies? What governs
you? Your choices, decisions, understandings...your surroundings,
environment...your entire life, who/what shapes it?? Can you honestly point out
one directive you have or have had?? If no, how many chances do you reckon you
have lost just because you lacked direction and guidance to even realize that
that was a chance bespoken for you? How much time do you think you have lost
due to all that?? Have a sneak-peak in your life a week ago, what were you
doing? What are you doing now? Is it any different or somehow you are still
stuck in space??
>>>>>>>>Treasures: always appreciate them!
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Chances: always take the!
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Time: always use it wisely!
How do you do that: make your own personal philosophies...your
baby steps? Your directives....
Until next time...
Love, always: Bafazini (seamie)
