Measures...

What’s your measure?                                                     Where is you measure?

"Above Myself...."

                                             Who is your measure?

Most people think themselves as though above others, above anything and everybody else; as a matter of fact, do think of themselves as if above the world; really. They live off the power or the lust of it regardless of how they gain it, even if it’s by making somebody else’s life miserable,- now that’s one expensive artillery I tell you.

Yet if I know any better, it never ends there now does it??

Here is the story; I have lived to realize how much people get fixated on what others think of them, how they value them, what they see in them...they spent their entire lives seeking strangers approval of them enough to sent them on a witch hunt of a life time wondering about other people’s lives just as much.

            Now, what is missing here??

Open eyes. Open eyes is what’s lacking in most of us, even in the best of us. People spent the better part of their lives walking with both eyes closed and they are too comfortable in that “deformity” enough to not even realize it. That entire time people spent trying to figure out other people and wondering about how the reverse is just as true, all the energy they invest in knowing so much about somebody else is a huge withdrawal from their own relationship bank account. Tell me again, who needs overdrafts?? I believe people should invest in their own personalities, flare own lives and potentials...which of course the kicker here is if you are too busy being bugged about somebody else’s life, yours will always pass you by!

Now I am the over achiever typpa of bird with the go for it “typpa” attitude sprinkled with the- I can do it –all- form of spirit on top as an adjuvant. I want to think me as the kind that loves logic and focus. Of course some times, most of the times maybe; I get it wrong and I know that, (I swear looking at the mess on my bed at the moment, there has to be a bigger word than WRONG!) but I know one more thing though; I AM HUMAN TOO. Knowing that helps us not feel anything less than worthy when we make mistakes ‘cause to err is only human and for that, nothing ever stops us from getting up after every fall and fight one more time.

Remember my opening statement?

                        However, I am moved by one principle and that is: I think of myself as above MYSELF. I measure “me” in accordance to my potential, my worth, my efficacy,- nobody else’s but mine! See, when I am in class and I see one of my classmates with a 100% in an exam, I don’t go all ‘local nutter” on my 60%, rather I look at it and ONLY it (I know we are human so humanity can take a stand at times but its within my right to kick it off and take back the stand!). Then I ask myself; “is this ALL of you? Is this your VERY best?” See that question is a lot easier to answer if once in your life you ever paid enough time to yourself to actually know you- I mean really know you!  Then I, well more like my subconscious is able to say; “NO! You are better than this. You can do a lot better, great actually and you know it too...so quit back-paddling and get on with it already!” you know why I say NO? because I don’t believe either one of us is anything but brilliant, we cannot be average...you cannot be average cause you are made in an image of one that’s perfect so you are nothing short of a miracle, that I promise you.

I call them moments where I am both the prosecutor and the defendant; “conversations with self!”  Now back to you, how many times do you have time for such? How often do you lie supine in your bed and focus ONLY on you? Now tell me, how many times do you have a meaningful conversation with yourself while you at it?? Once a week?  Or twice maybe? How about never? Honest!

                        Careful now, you might just be a stranger in your own body or head if you keep too far away from it YET always in somebody else’s!

Weigh yourself against you! - Rather weigh the 60% against your potential than the classmate’s and his/her 100%. You do realize the latter aren’t yours right??- It’s ok to be selfish at times, keep to self.

One of my best writers once wrote, “we miss 100% of the shots we never take in life;”- you know, like kissing THAT girl/ bloke(#double wink!), getting piss drunk and dancing on a them pool tables, playing poker, running naked in the rain, singing your lungs out on a highway in the rain..... (wait, that’s all me!xx) in any case how about always dreaming and planning but never actually mastering enough courage to drag your backside up there where them people with big heavy pockets are to show case your brilliance?? How about never going for what you really want??

                                    We always worry about not being good enough, that the next person can do it better than we can, what if this whole thing sucks.....So what if it does NOT suck? What if no one can EVER do it better? What if there is ONLY you?? How will you ever know all that if all you ever infatuated yourself with is how much of a failure you are??- A much unfounded fiction by the way.

Now, the next time you think about how lame, thick and tedious you or your creation is, just do yourself  a favor and  answer this first;- ‘ UNDER WHOSE MEASURE? MINE OR SOMEBODY’S?” it your response is the latter, then remember this; “you can NEVER measure up in people’s eyes cause even they are too invested in trying to measure up in other’s eyes that noticing you is a waste of time as compared to HELPING you not notice yourself. Fact is, no matter how much we want it to be, our scales will never be equal otherwise what’s the point of  errors and infinities in Math..People never see the same- hence others are color blind!

Remember: your measure is within you, you just need to reach to it and you will be home.                                 

  Remember: you are the best in everything you create because you the very best creation yourself       

Remember: you are a every unique-one of a kind- creation hence your definition of BEST will always be unique for others’...

                  Now do you finally get why your perfection can NEVER measure up with their scale??

Remember: there is only one of you and that’s you! No one else can ever be you.                                    

Remember: YOU ARE ABOVE YOURSELF NOT ANYBODY ELSE!!!

Remember my opening statement now?- “Most people think themselves as though above others, above anything and everybody else; as a matter of fact, do think of themselves as if above the world really.” But is there ever such a thing? I mean really?.. Regardless; know this, you are not MOST people!

“I am the master of my FATE and the captain of my SOUL!”~ William E. Henley

Remember: I am here for you #suck_thumb_promise!

~Bonze-Bav (Seamie).